Kumar Strikes Back

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 01:25:24 GMT

From the University of North Texas

Accepted at the University
Offered $5,000 a year (pending my graduation from HS)
Accepted in the the college of music as a composition major
Accepted into the Jazz Studies program
Accepted into the Honors College (which has the really nice dorms)

I mean damn,
can I please get some GOOD news from a college sometime?

Sun, 18 Feb 2007 03:29:01 GMT

Cleveland had like 2 feet of snow.
But where to go to college?

Man, Shakespeare just understands my life.

Blow, blow, thou winter wind,
Thou art not so unkind
As man's ingratitude;
Thy tooth is not so keen
Because thou art not seen,
Although thy breath be rude.
Heigh-ho! sing heigh-ho! unto the green holly:
Most friendship is feigning, most loving mere folly:
Then, heigh-ho! the holly!
This life is most jolly.

Freeze, freeze, thou bitter sky,
Thou dost not bite so nigh
As benefits forgot:
Though thou the waters warp,
Thy sting is not so sharp
As friend remember'd not.
Heigh-ho! sing heigh-ho! unto the green holly:
Most friendship is feigning, most loving mere folly:
Then, heigh-ho! the holly!
This life is most jolly.

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 10:30:35 GMT

valentines day is right up there with new years on the list of depressing holidays

Mon, 12 Feb 2007 21:12:57 GMT

I got a warning for not having a parking permit. But, I've gone to Bishop's office to get it like 5 times and he's never there. So, who's fault is it really? He should pay $35 tomorrow for not being around to give me a sticker.

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 18:20:05 GMT

I got into Berklee

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 01:34:39 GMT

Still waiting on an email from Berklee.

Is anyone doing anything Sunday for the game? I'm going to have middle schoolers at my house and I desperately need to go somewhere.

Have you ever had this inexplicable feeling that makes you want to just sit and listen to soft emo-rock and just exclaim to everyone you know (who are waiting in your mind) that you don't know if you're fooling anyone but you're really not strong or secure or content and that you're scared every minute. I don't know really what there is to be scared of. So I usually just pretend that it's not there- but sometimes it just comes at you so strong you feel like laughing or crying or anything at all just to prove you're still ok.

Sat, 27 Jan 2007 21:25:40 GMT

So I just have to say...

I know it's a long shot, but if I actually get into Miami there is NO WAy I'm going somewhere else. Well, maybe- if there are other offers. But its SO COOl! and , I'm feeling a bit inferior now. Oh, well.

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 20:50:33 GMT

one year ago, I was reading Hemingway, getting ready for the SAT and rehearsing for 42nd street. This year, today, I am sick and gloomy.

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 01:50:31 GMT

I have gone insane. For full details, try to imagine being pulled in 18 different directions by forces, each as unrelenting and unreasonable as Mr. Washington or my parents, and finally snapping. I think that's what happened- I snapped. snap.

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 21:29:37 GMT

Does anyone know when our revised paper for english is due? P.S., if you had my paper for the editing thing and were absent that day, and you read this, please let me know what I should fix.

Thanks

Sat, 13 Jan 2007 02:51:22 GMT

the weekend is/was a beautiful thing, before it was ruined with homework and studying. Thanks a lot, teachers whose names begin with W (Whiteside, Washington, W-Phillips)

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 23:55:23 GMT

Berklee keeps sending me emails about: summer programs, live chats, etc. but nothing to do with getting in. Basically, I don't want to hear from you unless it's a yes or no.

Tue, 09 Jan 2007 21:50:36 GMT

so many ups and downs I'm very, very confused
my phone is fixed. Well, not the same phone, but at least there is now a phone with my number. I feel like there must be tons of homework to do, but i can't remember what it is...

Tue, 09 Jan 2007 00:09:08 GMT

soo tired
the happy comes and goes. Sucks when it goes. Really, I can only keep the happy when I'm at school.

Sun, 07 Jan 2007 22:59:32 GMT

a lot of things don't make sense these days. I feel like I'm slightly falling apart and just barely holding it together physically and emotionally with a big smile.

P.S. my phone broke, but i doubt anyone has been calling.

the weekend should be longer than the week, in my opinion

Sun, 07 Jan 2007 02:31:20 GMT

have you ever just wanted to punch the closest thing?
maybe its just me

P.S. I think I broke my knuckle.

Sat, 06 Jan 2007 01:57:28 GMT

This week has been crazy on so many levels

Every day seems to start out ok, but by the end I am left wondering why I even bother doing anything. It's bizarre.

I wish I knew where I was going to go to college. Either that, or everyone would just stop talking about it.

Fri, 05 Jan 2007 00:57:14 GMT

some folks seem to think i only got one problem
i can't find nobody as crazy as me

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 02:39:05 GMT

what a stressful month this is
and what good is any of it? in the end we're the same as we were in december, but a little bit older.

Wed, 03 Jan 2007 00:33:09 GMT

You wander down the lane and far away
Leaving me a song that will not die
Love is now the stardust
Of yesterday
Sometimes I wonder why I spend
The lonely nights
Dreaming of a song.
The melody haunts my reverie

Tue, 02 Jan 2007 00:48:52 GMT

thus school will soon begin again.
and the homeworks are still undone.
and I'm having a very unhappy new year.

Sat, 30 Dec 2006 20:53:19 GMT

When Winter comes, it doesn't ask
It just walks in where it left you last
You never know when it starts
Until there's fog inside the glass around your summer heart

Something's missing
And I don't know how to fix it
Something's missing
And I don't know what it is at all

I can't be sure that this state of mind
Is not of my own design
I wish there was an over-the-counter test for loneliness like this

Something's missing

Sat, 30 Dec 2006 15:39:15 GMT

anyone else have nothing to do new years?
except college applications
and reading for whiteside
yeah didn't think so

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 21:21:29 GMT

Christmas came and went. Soon, I will get a saxophone.

Break sucks. Not as much as school, though. And I have to read a ton of stuff for english.
Instead, I plop and sit and watch the hallmark channel. Or lifetime, oxygen, something. Quite a depressing existence.

Maybe it's much too early in the game
Oh, but I thought I'd ask you just the same
What are you doing New Year's eve?

Wonder whose arms will hold you good and tight
When it's exactly twelve o'clock that night
Welcoming in the New Year
New Year's eve

Maybe I'm crazy to suppose
I'd ever be the one you chose
Out of the thousand invitations
You received

Ooh, but in case I stand one little chance
Here comes the jackpot question in advance:
What are you doing New Year's Eve?

Sun, 24 Dec 2006 02:57:15 GMT

Yesterday was fun. I hung out with Zaire and Caitlin and Sara M (who I hadn't seen since 7th grade)- it was cool. Caribou, Taco Bell, Guitar Center, the like. Today, David and I worked out and got veggie burgers. And I traded Derek a cornet for a trumpet.

Having said that, I hate my parents with a passion. They are tyrannical and unfair. And completely unsympathetic. And anytime I don't want to do what they want me to do, they say that I'm just selfish and make me feel unfit to be a human being. But I'm tired of listening to them. So I don't.

College apps are depressing. You spend hours upon hours doing them and making them perfect, and you get rejected anyway- all the time and energy wasted.

[Hold me... I'm a fermata]

(Nothin' new for New Year's for me
It don't mean nothing if you're crying all the time
And there's no one there to see your tears
And so, to my reflection in the window
I'll raise my glass and make a toast to you
I've never known a man to be heartbroken
My someone that he never even knew
All I wanted was an angel that I don't expect to see
And I'll be singing 'Auld Lang Syne' alone)

Does anyone know what we have to read this break? How much Milton? Frankenstein? Which Frankenstein- old or slightly less old? Independent novels, etc? Other things I forgot?